THE MOTHER I KNEW, HER NATURE WAS SAD
MY FATHER A MAN WHO ANGERED EASY & ALWAYS SEEMED MAD
I WAS CLOSE TO THEM, THEN, BUT, AS THE YEARS WENT BY
MOM AND DAD'S LIFE JUST MADE ME WANT TO CRY
MY BROTHER AND SISTER DIDN'T KNOW THEM LIKE ME
WHAT HAPPENS OVER THE YEARS CAN BREAK A FAMILY TREE
AND WHEN SHE WAS YOUNG AND STILL HAD SOME JOY
THE TIMES WERE DIFFERENT AND I WAS HER BOY
I CAN REMEMBER WHEN THE TIMES WERE GOOD
AND WE WERE A FAMILY JUST LIKE IT SHOULD
AND WHEN I WAS SMALL...MOM AND DAD WERE MY GLUE
BUT THEY CARRIED A WEIGHT MORE THAN ANYONE KNEW
BACK THEN I JUST WANTED... THINGS TO BE ...RIGHT
BUT SOMETHING CHANGED AND IT WAS A DAILY FIGHT
MOM WASN'T THE SAME AND LOST LIFE'S ENERGY
AND STARTED TAKING THOSE PILLS... THAT TOOK HER FROM ME
AS THE YEARS PASS , MY SIBLINGS WERE BORN
MY MOM GOT WORSE...MY FAMILY WAS TORN
WE WOULD MOVE...IT WAS JUST... HERE & THERE
WITH AN AUNT OR MY GRANDPARENTS CARE
WE WERE ALWAYS WITH SOMEONE'S LOVE
BUT IT'S NOT THE KIND... OTHERS SPEAK OF
MOM WAS SUFFERING INSIDE, IN A PAINFUL WAY
NO ONE COULD UNDERSTAND AND SHE WAS SENT AWAY
THE SHOCK TREATMENT THEY GAVE... STARTED HER MEMORY LOSS
INTO A LIVING GRAVE IT WAS A TERRIBLE COST
IF WE ONLY KNEW THE PAIN SHE HAD
WE COULD HAVE SHOWN MORE COMPASSION & NOT TREAT HER SO BAD
AS TIME WENT BY...OUR FAMILY LOST IT'S GLUE
OUR DAD DID HIS BEST.... BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME AS TWO
MY MOM HAD A ROUGH ROAD... TOUGHER THAN YOU OR ME
SHE DESERVED BETTER... SHE NEEDED OUR FAMILY TREE
AT TIMES I WOULD SEE HER ON HER KNEES WHEN SHE PRAYED
TRYING TO DEAL WITH THIS LIFE WE HAD MADE
I CAN PICTURE HER IN THAT LIVING ROOM CHAIR
WITH A BLANK LOOK ON HER FACE... NOT SEEMING TO CARE
LATER MY FATHER WOULD SIT IN THAT SAME SEAT
STRANGLING IT'S ARMS IN MENTAL DEFEAT
AS THE YEAR'S WENT BY, HER MIND BECAME HER PRISON
AND I COULD HAVE DONE MORE... TO BE A BETTER PERSON
BUT ANGER AND ILLNESS ARE NEVER GOOD FRIENDS
IT'S NOT FOR KID'S...AND THE MESSAGE IT SENDS
WE ALL WISHED... SHE WOULD SOME HOW BECOME WHOLE
AND NOT LOSE HER AGAIN LIKE SOME LOST SOUL
WE WERE ALL BEATEN DOWN... A BIT ON THE INSIDE
JUST HOPING THAT WE WOULDN'T... LOSE OUR OWN MIND
NOTHING EVER IS JUST BLACK AND WHITE
TOO BAD WE WERE YOUNG & DIDN'T HAVE THE FORESIGHT
TIME GOES BY AND THE CHANGES WERE UP AND DOWN
WE ALL WORE THE SCARS AND SOME INNER FROWN
THE FAMILY WE HAD ...WASN'T LIKE SOME
WE NEVER FELT RIGHT... WITH OUR MOM... COMFORTABLY NUMB
DAD ALWAYS SEEMED BITTER & PASSED HER... A LOT OF BLAME
BUT THIS WAS OUR LIFE AND NOT SOME KIND OF GAME
WE ALL GREW UP AND THE FAMILY KIND OF SPLIT
THE TRUTH REALLY IS ...WE WERE TIRED OF THIS SHIT
WITH ALL REAL EXPERIENCES THAT TASTED SO BAD
I JUST PRAYED I WOULDN'T TURN OUT... LIKE MY DAD
ALL THAT I LEARNED, I HOPE. WOULDN'T BE REPEATED
I NEVER WANTED MY KID... TO EVER FEEL CHEATED
THE WAY THINGS TURNED OUT, NO ONE WAS TO BLAME
YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE MOST... OF LIFE'S CRUEL GAME
AND IF MY MOM WERE AROUND... TO BE OUR GLUE
WE...ALL... WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER FOR IT...JUST LIKE A CHOSEN FEW...
I LOVE YOU MOM
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